In 1998 for the first time as an adult, I travelled to the birthplace of my parents
in Portugal. The images created convey the contradictions between
what might be perceived as a romantic nostalgia for a time past and the harsh
reality of what our family more specifically myself within this family
endured. The political and religious persecution that informed
both the distant and recent histories of my family plays an integral role in the
uncovering of the family secrets that have patterned my own personal history
and shaped my identity. My ancestry is indivisible from a larger history of
Secret Jewish communities of Portugal, the "Marranos", whose 'double
existence' can be traced back to the expulsions
of Jews during the Spanish Inquisition in the late 1400s.
Tracing a Diaspora, a tribeless tribe, longing for answers, longing to belong, to
outcast alienation, I have encountered the obsession to preserve, to
document, to prevent disappearance and forgetfulness.
Quebec, 2002, 15min, colour